My really unique friend

 Santi def is a present that God gave me.

We have so much different background and it should be really hard for us to meet and become friends.

But life is fantastic, God is amazing. 

We met each other in a country which is neither of our hometown, and we just hit it off.

When I tried to get over the terrible relationship, he was there without any judgement and supported me doing anything I want. And he is always the standard that I use for choosing my partner. 

I traveled to Bogota this April, that’s the best ever memories I have in my life. After the trip, I know our life will be very hard to meet together and it probably will be the last time we can get together. However, I just somehow have so solid faith that I know our friendship will still last and forever, and I will be the most special one for him and vice versa.

When I encounter difficulties, fell frustrated, I can fully believe that he will say I am doing good and no matter what happens he is proud of me.


And my grandma left this June, I still cannot get over after few months. 

While just this morning, I think about Santi again. I just suddenly feel like maybe I can just image my grand ma now live in another country and doing good and she will support everything I do and believe. Just like how much I believe Santi will do and Grand ma will.

I just need to practice it 

And once again Santi is the present God give me to help me go though every difficult time



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